The beauty of writing on these quotes each week is each woman’s interpretations, and we come from all different approaches. I’ve not read the book, and do not know the specifics of what the author was writing about. I am writing it from “my” viewpoint, because I know for me, it’s something God has been working on my heart with.
I’ve been required to go forward, not back as this author shared. This what God wants “me” to do – and God may have something else for you. Sometimes we do need to go back to work through it, and work it out for the future. I’ve shared a lot about my son who passed away almost four years ago . . . and though we go back often to share and bring awareness, I don’t want to “stay” there. I don’t want to grieve anymore. I want that joy in the morning. I know God wants that – and I know even my son who bathes in His glory would want that. There’s another area I don’t share about too much, because I don’t know who all reads this. God has removed the bitterness and anger and given hope and newness.
My adoptive mom and I did not click – or as it would be modernly said now, we did not bond. It was a rough childhood and for many years beyond. We never completely mended our hurts. There was no reconciliation during her last year of life as she fought the cancer battle, though I know she read my cards and she knew I loved her. She died seven months before my son. The strange thing is I’ve not had one dream of my son since his death. How I longed for it – to see his face, to hear him talk, to hold him in my dream, to tell him I loved him and forgave him. But I know he knew that. There really was not that need. With my mom, it was all unresolved. God blessed me with a dream of her. We were sitting at a table, and though I don’t remember our conversation, there was healing ~ there was reconciliation. We talked, we laughed, we looked in each others eyes, we touched . . . She was healed. I was healed. Truth was so vividly revealed to me. When I take my last breath here, and take the first one in heaven, and see her again, there will be no turning away from each other. Our bodies are not just new, but our minds and emotions as well. The “sorrys” will not have to be said. It’s all gone.
God has allowed me to move forward from much of my childhood. Sadness still passes through at times, and missing the mom I wish I would have had in my life – but then God reminds me of the brieviety of this life and it won’t really matter in heaven. Keep moving forward – look forward to heaven.
“Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” Phil 3:12-14
I am thankful God has required me to move forward.
This week, Miriam is hosting “In ‘Other’ Words” at her site, Miriam Pauline’s Monologue. Be sure to visit her site and the links to the other women who have shared on this quote. Then come back here on Friday, for next Tuesday’s new quote for In ‘Other’ Words. Be