o, the Christmas season is here. Is it a joyous time for you? Are there expectations not met, sadness seeping through? I have mixed emotions right now. It’s our first Christmas with a grandbaby! What joy! It will be fun. I DO look forward to celebrating with her, to see her eyes sparkle, to hold that new gift from God. Watching her parents, which includes one of my daughters, delight so in their new daughter . . . and watching our other children as new aunts and uncles with her – it IS such joy! And I am so very grateful!
Yet, maybe it’s because of the car accident last week, and still feeling achy, but I’m just struggling to be upbeat. I was so looking forward to seeing my 88 year old dad whom I’ve not seen in over 9 years and now he’s moving from my childhood home, and missed out on seeing him and the house, and it just plain hurts as I think of him spending his last days there in a nearly empty house, most of his furniture gone. Our son’s heaven anniversary date is coming up . . . it’s not a celebration for us left behind – I miss him – this year seems harder than last year. And in the middle of it all there’s misunderstandings with a Christmas tree, of all things – what to put up – the one our son gave us years ago, or get a new one – and which one is better and which one we should spend money on – and the meaning of Christmas gets overshadowed by life stuff. There’s just expectations of hopes, that are not met – hurts and pains that linger on, and sometimes it’s just heart crushing. And it can feel like defeat as Satan sneaks in those things that are not true . . . and I keep thinking of all the things I should be doing for “CHRISTMAS” . . . and things I want to do or do with the kids – or read – or go to – and I am not –
And then I read this . . .
“Whenever Christmas begins to burden,
it’s a sign that I’ve taken on something of the world and not of Christ.”
~ Ann Voskamp
I may not make all the gifts I was hoping to or do all the Pinterest Christmas decorating pinned. The Christmas tree that seemed to be the right one may not be up or ten pies may be never baked and put in the freezer. I do not need to carry those burdens. And though Jesus has already been born at the right time, in the right place for all of us, I can still anticipate what He will do to renew a right spirit and know He’s not given up, even while I feel like doing so.
We have 21 days to anticipate change before Christmas, joy in the morning and that the God who parted the Red Sea and won’t let us drown either.